I usually try to paint as lifelike or real looking scenes as I can manage.
This makes it hard to get the paintings looking just right, but when I do succeed in some form I just find it exhilarating.
The pressure I put on myself to paint something good almost always ends up getting me disappointed with the actual result though.
I seem to think I’m a better painter than I actually am when I sit down to paint.
I then often get disheartened when I finish up the painting, not being happy with it at all, and leave it there for a little while.
When I come back though, I almost always find it looking better than I originally thought when leaving it.
This gives me back some confidence, which again sets me up for the following process with my next painting.
Anyway, in my last session I decided to give myself some slack, not worrying about things looking real.
I just wanted to be creative, doing something new and shake it up a bit.
So I made a very “not-lifelike” painting with two people walking in a colourful park, dabbing some paint on with a palette knife.
It felt good to not be so self-critical in the painting process. I don’t think it ended up as a very good painting, but I don’t feel it was that bad either.
Just somthing different…